Soooo my first day at college was okay.. um.. my teacher was a little moody with me for some mystical unknown reason o.o;
but my class mates generally are quite funny (maybe a tiny bit annoying I'm not sure yet lol) and a little adorable too ^-^ yay!
We didn't really do much today other than hand outs annnd getting our computers and accounts set up etc.. which I'm a little relieved about because I was running on 2 hours sleep lol!!

Dream catcher

Sisterly compassion.

Things have been quite harsh for me lately.
About two days ago I was thinking of getting some rose quartz jewelry as it enhances love and healing etttccc, and just after I'd finished looking my sister posted onto her facebook that she is thinking about getting some rose quartz ^-^!!! so we were talking about it for a little while, and I showed her the necklace that I intend to get after april(I'm paying full rent/ over all bills(as oppose to just paying for what I use) until after april to help my mom out with things so I'll be unable to splurge much) ^__^ and today guess what ?! she was looking for her own quartz, and she got one for me :) to tide me over until I get the necklace that I want ^///////^!!! <3 I haven't told her about the things that are making me feel so sad lately, but I think she has a pretty good idea.. as she always does o.o;
I really just have the sweetest sister ever ! things like this make me kinda happy ^^

Random 5am post..

but I think that these can be super useful !

I know that when I was little it was hard to find good quality Vegan shoes so try as we might we just couldn't find them suitable for school and wearing on the motorbike(thatIrodetoschool/nurseryeveryday^^)

Some of these are SO adorable too !

http://www.fashion-conscience.com/catalogsearch/result/?q=Vegan

http://www.alternativestores.com/ethical-shop/vegetarian-shoes/womens-vegetarian-shoes/cat_10.html

http://eco-vegan-shoes.com/

http://www.vegetarian-shoes.co.uk/


Speaking of delicious and adorable
Forever Cake anyone ?
http://www.etsy.com/shop/12LegsCuriosities?ref=seller_info
I've been a fan of this etsy store since I first joined etsy :D!!!
I just never get around to asking if they will ship here T___T!! *tooshy lol!!!*
siiigghhh ~~~~
I'd devour the whole store -- if I could. Actually these cupcakes are the kind that you can't eat :D
You'll be able to drool over them day after day after day, and never have to worry about a single calorie;) haha!

This is my best friend..

she's stupendously talented, and interesting, you should take a look at her two blogs :]

http://panduhgrafix.blogspot.co.uk/

http://panduhgrafix.wordpress.com/

*O* I shall not have to search out my favorite tea for a  verrrrryy long time :D!!!! <3333
Knew you were up to something :]!

My cousin is in intensive care again :/ she has swelling in her brain again :/ and has no immune system ~_~
I don't even know what to think:/ none of my other cousins have anything wrong... and she just keeps getting sick :/

Well done for being unoriginal hypocritical and down right disgusting !
Your access to my pictures has now been revoked, and you are blocked.
Should anyone ever mention you to me I will point out that you're a plagiarist and not to be trusted.
Even more so it disgusts me that you would steal in such a way for something related to your own mother !!! can't you think up anything original in the slightest if you're going to 'create' something to flatter somebody as important to you as your mother?!
I've been known to say that if my friends happen to buy/make/do/whatever the same as me then I do find it quite adorable ! and I honestly do ! but mimicking almost down to a T a very meaningful and precious picture that I created from my own heart and light for my soulmate who lives thousands of miles away, just down right DISGUSTS me ! how dare you :/!
that is not the same as dressing/dressing our dolls/accidentally buying the same things! that is blatant stealing, and even worse is that you're not a friend, you're some random person I thought may be nice, and actually creative themselves, but quite obviously not.
I hope that you find this, I hope that you're ashamed of yourself ! for tainting your own light, and tainting something which was so meaningful and full of love for somebody else. 

Happy !

the boys are SO big now ! their baby coat's completely gone too ;_; a little sad to see it go, and a little sad that they've grown without me getting a chance to catch more pictures of them in their pre-teens
but just now they were fighting over who sat on my shoulder :D! Boo was first, little darling :D!!! <3 and then me and pudding had a bit of bonding time too, that boys going to be BIG you can tell by how big his head is lol!! and then I finally got them to play with me!!!!!!!! awwww! boo got so excited ahahahaa!! I've been trying to play for  a while but they've always just gotten scared, but this time they ran around tagging each other AND ME!!! :D yaaayy hehe! sooo happy ! this has totally made my day so much better <3
Each of them are starting to learn their names too ! Boo was the first to learn his aha ! when he was a baaaby baby he'd run to me and kiss me whenever I said his name :]!!! but now whenever I say Loli he comes to me and looks and whenever I say Boo he does too ! pudding still isn't used to his, but since he's my mom's boyfriend's rat(who didn't even want him at first !!!) he isn't getting as much attention, because we don't want to step on Gaz's toes.. but at the same time he's barely interacting with him :/ ... anyway none of them look unless it's their name called !!!! so they definitely know :] <333

Need a distraction

from my incoming panic attack >__< aannd Usagi is in the shower? or.. idk? O_o;
Color - Turquoise
Fruit - Raspberries
Candy - Japanese candy
Chocolate - daaaaaark
Cold Drink - Ice fruit tea
Hot Drink - Fruit tea :D
Ice Cream - Mint and strawberry
Chips - Uhm I'm not sure, I don't really eat chips o.o !
Car - Pink et blueee that's all I care abou- oh and it can't look like a slug D:
Television Show - GAKI NO TSUKAI XD
Movie - eughhhhhhhhhhh I don't knowww D:
Sport - Badminton! gymnastics! :]
Perfume - Ylang ylang oil .////////.'''
BJD - Unoa Lusis <3333
Meat - D: no meat
Vegetable - All of them *-* ahaha! I'msoweiiirddd :p
City to Visit - Toronto
Celebrity Crush - My boyfriend ._.
Book - The enchanted horse
Sport's Team - Scotland.
Pet - *o* Skunks!
Actor - Binny
Actress - Aishwarya Rai O//////o
Season - Autumn
Designer - Aphrodite's folly
Comfort Food - Ramen, mashed potatoes, aaaannnddd celery with cream cheese.////////.
Piece of Clothing - My comfy purple hoodie :]

I want to spend every moment of every day with Usagi! and talking *-* but I'm so sleepy ~o~ I think I'm going to bed first tonight ~ maybe he'll take the hint and follow so we can snuggle up !^__^

for i am breathing only for this, for you only ♥

One day my light will turn to fairy dust, and float up through the sky to join the stars,
and my body will return as siren tears, melting back into the sea.

私は肉が食べません
肉がきもい

breakfast:

Cherry yogurt, a cinnamon bun, a handful of orange slices, grapes, and blue berries, a chocolate muffin, and cherry tea.
Hopefully all the fruit and cinnamon will help me feel bettter :(
my eyes hurt to look any way but forward, it feels like riggamortis :/
and uhh gosh... the people who I will not be allowing to view my personal flickr, think that by removing me as a contact, and readding me(so that it shows on my dash again) will get me to add them :/!! no? I already ignored you once. Starting to feel like they're harassing me also with all this unwanted contact.
I'm staying away from flickr for while I'm sick, I can't gather myself to reply :(  I'm going to try to reply to Amanda<3 and then I'm taking a break ;__;

venting here so I don't depress anybody lol!

TT^TT I feel so siiiccckk! Kiiii come talk to me later and show me your beautiful face and make me feel betterrrsss nyaaa~~ ;^;!!!
I don't wan eat anymore of thosee cacky oranges D< they're hurting my throat D<<<!!!!!
Just want my bunnyyy ;______;

:D my boys are SOO cleverrr ! wow! I took their house apart so that they'd see the fish we put in their bowl, and once they ate their fish, pudding and loli started working together to try and get the top back onto their house !!! they almost did it hahaha!! but then loli saw me sitting by them and came up to sit on the blue shelf and sat there watching me as if to ask me to do it hahhaha XD so ..yeah I fixed it together for them cause it's complicated little house.. and they're all popcorning around it now XD!!!!!

I know it probably sounds like wishful thinking but honestly!! pudding turned the lid.. while loli held the bed part still.. and he was sitting on it, pulling it with his little arms!! trying to pull it over XD!!! then he got off it.. went behind it and pulled it down!! so clever :D hehe!

Ugghh nooo! I took some cough medicine yesterday, and had a really bad reaction to it O_o they hit under two pages of label that it's not suitable for people with asthma or people who are coughing(what the hecks it for then if not coughing? it's cough serum!O_O;?) and now I'm really ill ;^; again, ugh! but this is like chemically induced asthma D: so I can't go and see my grandpa today :( that sucks. 

Usagi stayed with me until I fell asleep last night <3 I just feel so poorly now :( I know I have messages to reply to but my breathing hurts so much I can't even concentrate D: I read kitty's message 4 times and I still have no idea ~__~;;;;;; 

 I just wanted to say that I find most vegan food that's intended to "supplement" meat, kinda gross.
I like vegetables, fruit, and all that other good stuff that doesn't come from an animal, and if you do too.. then you don't even need icky fakey meat! :] a vegan or vegetarian diet isn't about eating fake meat ! a vegan/veg diet is about eating veg!!! and fruit.. and all the delicious things inbetween! Usually fresh, and raw, or concocted into some delicious masterpiece :D

I just found out that my grandpa is in a care home :( he had a nasty fall and now he can't cope on his own, we didn't know because my aunt didn't bother to give us the letter, that was mailed to her with my MOMs! name on! :/

then paypal go all WOOWOO on me and froze my account? what the heccckkk? :(!!

;___; so I'm stresseddd! and I knit the hat I'm knitting. way too tight ;___;! Thank goodness for Panduh and Aysel making me smile from their wholehearted sweetness! and keeping me calm <33