Siigh

So here it is, the post explaining everything.
I mentioned a while ago that my friend was sick again. His names John, and he's been a friend of mine, my parents, since I was 6 years old. And since I was 6 years old he has been battling with cancer tumors in his brain. He has lost and regained his speech so many times, motor skills, use of his left side.
After so long fighting the tumors that kept growing back, we thought he was finally okay ! they said they had gotten it finally ! and a year and a half later it's back. Again.
I'm scared. I don't want to lose him. I don't want him to leave me like my uncle has left us, I feel like all the people I love are sick, and they are ! Nobody's going to be around to see my children grow up, or be there for my official marriage ceremony to Ki :(
Yesterday I went to visit my nan, in hospital. She's had another stroke, but she says she's doing okay. She's promised me she's getting better and she's being let out in two days. I'm going to visit her, I had to fight my mom to let me go because my biological father *might* of been there. It's so unfair. I was kept away from my grandad and he suddenly died on me, thinking that I didn't care about him, he MUST have thought that I didn't care ! goodness knows what THAT person had been telling him:( there's no way for him to of known that I was being kept away from him.
Last night before bed my mom got a phone call, I figured it was from HIM, because she sent me upstairs. She told me today what he said.. he makes it all about him in the hopes that we'll stay away. He doesn't want me around my nan because I know that he's hurting her. And he doesn't want anyone around her who *knows* what me and my mom, and sister, know. It's not going to work though, my mom can't keep me away from my nan anymore, and I don't think she's going to try now. She needs to face her demons her self and stop restricting me because of them.